The Loneliness

Wednesday, August 24, 2011 JS Hanniffy 0 Comments


So what story we got today? I've just called my little boy today, asking about his plan to 'pulang kampung': pulang kampung means you return home, usually you return home to celebrate Ied - a day after the month of Ramadan. 



Ade and his foster family will be going to Kebumen in Java. When he sent me text to inform about the plan, I was happy for him as at least he has 'good' people to celebrate Ied together. After short conversation to Mrs Azka, I sat on the coach in the living room, thinking how nice to be with family on Ied day.


When I find the quote above and read it repeatedly, I implement it to my own life, my imagination lead to a cat's life, wonder how anxious and lonely a cat's life is. Uhmm, I was thinking "I shouldn't be so upset about being lonely on Ied day as even cats grow lonely and anxious. 


How often do you 'pulang kampung'?



If the distance between Ireland and Indonesia is just like Jakarta - Bandung I would 'pulang kampung' so often. However, I've been 'pulang kampung' three times in a year, so won't get another day off permission from my hubby until we're financially ready.



My last time to celebrate Ied in Indonesia with family was in 2008. It was my first Ied celebration in Indonesia after four years. 



Since at age twenty fifth, I rarely celebrate Ied together with family - of course I miss a lot the event of being together on Ied day with my family, and 'sometimes' I'm a bit up set for not being able with them on Ied day. 



It's just like a Christmas where mostly parents expecting their children to return home and celebrate the Christmas together.


"Even cats grow lonely and anxious" ~ Mason Cooley

When I find the quote above and read it repeatedly, I implement it to my own life, my imagination lead to a cat's life, wonder how anxious and lonely a cat's life is. Uhmm, I was thinking "I shouldn't be so upset about being lonely on Ied day as even cats grow lonely and anxious. 



When thinking about loneliness it suddenly lead me to a friend's husband of mine who, I think, he doesn't really like to participate himself with the world outside. It's kind of my hubby like who prefer to be with certain people in certain occasions.

Maybe it because the westerns lifestyle looks like where people prefer to live individually. 


However, I find it difficult at the first time arrives in Ireland, to adapt this individual life style, as you know Asian people is prefer to be with community or in a gathering instead of being alone; so it got me to frustration to be on my own world all the time.



After years living in Ireland, I get used to it. However I got scared sometimes to be alone on my pension period - just like those seniors I see in this country: will I survive to have such a life like that? Being alone till my death?




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