The Wish -Fullfilment Of Dreams

My love,

I am back here again. I attempt to be more relaxed today as I had been studying hard since 2 months ago. Well, as I have written in my previous post that my psychologist test will come soon on the 9^th, 11^th, 15^th, and 17^th of January, so I need to prepare the whole of the Psychology’s subjects perfectly.  Again, wish me luck love.

One of the subjects that come out on the test will be about the interpretation of dreams. This subject then soon becomes an idea for me to write it on my online diary, particularly to write and interpret my own dream.

Before I study Psychology, I had been told by many people and specially my mom that dreams had meanings. My mom is one of the other people who believe that dreams are symbols of something for the future of our life. Certainly it distrusted and irrational thought to be trusted by me. However I change my view on this since I study the theory of Freud to the interpretation of dreams.

Let’s just go to the topic. I have been dreaming the same man who I never met before. I wrote about the previous dreams about him on my other blog. Usually I always remember my dreams clearly, but I can only remember some of my dreams last night. And that was when he touched my hands.

“We were walking on ...  somewhere, he looked unconfident about something, yet he did not want to look at me. I kept stare at him, looked at his eyes..... And feeling tired of something, but kept stay beside him instead of leaving him... he suddenly looked at me, reached my hand, touched it, and held it gently....”

When I flashback to all my previous dreams, I realise how all the dreams appear in different stories, but they all tell me the same signs namely sadness and happiness.  Perhaps my wishes stimulate to visualize a happy life with him; meanwhile there is a lack communication between us in the reality, for which later on the visualization to happinnes perhaps carry the happiness into my dreams?

The phenomenon in dream derives from so-called a wish. Aside from wish, it also derives from experiences which are involves visual, images, feelings and thoughts. My wish to him is I can perhaps talk to him personally, wittingly he will tell me what he feels about everything. This unfulfilled wish then soon evokes me to so-called the dream-work. And my little experience with him, enhancing to additional imagination for the wish-fulfilment.

So are those dreams a symbol to something?

Good night love,

DBLN, 00.24-261209

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It's All About Humanity

I know that when you read the title above you will get bored quickly. It is boring because it’s about humanity, and certainly reminds you of religion lesson or Pendidikan Moral Pancasila’s lesson perhaps? Or you might even critically angry at me. Don’t think that I choose this lemma because I am a teacher of PMP, or a religious person who studying in Cairo, or the opposite that mentioned above. I am not any of them. As a country that teaches us with Pancasila’s methods, certainly I am wondering: Is this country really Pancasila? Don’t take it seriously if you have no the answer. I have no the answer either. However, here is a story of my own experience below which perhaps give a slight knowledge to all of us.

I was graduation from a Christian secondary school. This became a controversial in the environment where I was living with. I myself and certainly the entire of my family is ottoman. Many our neighbourhood asked how my mom could take me to Christian school as she was a hajj. The issue about a religion was very sensitive at the time and hitherto I assume, so whatever answer my Mom gave to them, they could not understand, or they may intentionally not to understand at all, moreover perhaps they were just being so selfish to themselves.

My Mom knew that there were many Islam’s schools in Jakarta and she could take me to one of those schools, but she definitely had a strong reason why she took me in a Christian school. The reason was a very simple: She wanted me to learn new things from other religions. That is all. So what the advantage could I get after all? I don’t need to tell you what advantage that I got from the new things, do I? Alright, I will tell you. It was Love and friendship.

Have you ever had a best friend who has differences in religion and culture with you? So you know what I am talking about in here.

Soon after my graduation from the Christian school, my Mom said: “You are now known what you are going to do with so-called diversity”.

I read about an article in blog writing about an activity of an Indonesian actress who she herself has been so wonderful helping poor children, which was the society, was under Christian’s society. For sure, he was a teacher. He critically wrote about her activity, for which I thought there was definitely nothing wrong to be criticised in her social activity. When I read this article I smiled at it. In addition I worry if his thought influent his students not to help other people than ottoman.

Don’t you think it’s scary?

In fact it happens too often in daily life. People occasionally too busy thinking about themselves, and being selfish to themselves. They are pathetic losers, because something is already missing from their brain. They have forgotten about so-called love. They don’t know love in diversity.

You might have something to criticise of what I have already written above. Regardless of what you think right now; I am unintentionally to assign a messy perception to you. I might need to remind myself and perhaps all of us what we have learnt in Pancasila.

Everyone knows what humanity is, particularly us, Indonesian who always reading PANCASILA at school on Monday in each week. I bet, although you are away from Indonesia or you are a senior (Senior is for oldster in American English); you might be still remember PANCASILA quiet clearly. Obviously, because we read it since we were in college, right? And have you ever realised how much connected is PANCASILA to the HUMANITY? You might easily to answer this: Pancasila is about humanity. Yes, certainly it is. Pancasila lead us how to behave and think in its methods. As well as religion edify us to be good person. Is that really true? You give me the answer.

All the scriptures lead us to clearly knowledge how to have a happy life in diversity. But once again, we are too selfish to ourselves to think that we better than other people.

If you are human, you know what love is,

DBLN, 23.26-241209

The Greatest Woman In The World - Happy Mother's Day 'Mom.....

My love,

“Don’t hurt someone’s heart!” Said my mom angrily after that boy left home.

“I don’t want to hurt them, but they like being hurt” I replied it to defend myself as I felt I did not make something wrong.

No matter what my Mom taught me how to behave –particularly with a boy that I did not like to see with- I always ignored to what she said. She always reminded the two of her children in her own philosophy: “DO NOT HURT SOMEONE’s HEART”. She believes the consistence of always being good will away evil and leaves you in a peace. I always never listened to her as it seemed did not make sense for me. Moreover I often laughed at her. I was so bad, eh?

It was a long ago. I was still immature and had no idea how to up against to someone I did not like with. Thank God that I am studying Psychology so I can understand the aim of her absurd philosophy.

“Prove it if it seems absurd. You had better tell me with a knowledge rather than just laughing at me” Said my Mom once I laughed of what she said.

And you know what? I just realise it how my mom encourage me to keep learning; by word “Prove it”.

·         By learning we will be able to know who we are

·         By learning we know more love than hate

·         By learning you are away from folly

·         By learning we will become virtue

·         By learning the world is yours

Thank you Mom. Thank you for approaching me a different method about LEARNING. Whatever titles I got, I am still beyond your virtue. I am just born as baby. You are the master of any masters in LEARNING. Happy mother's day Mom.

With lots of love,

DBLN, 12.38-221209

Phenomena Of The Parapraxes; Human Being's Errors

My love,

It is so grateful that I am finally able to survive and writing something again on this fabulous blog’s society. I intended to write about a story in the past which it is about a story of my teenager hood, but then I decided to write another instead as at the moment my moods in studying has already effected me to write something else.

A couple of days ago I started to read a book of Sigmund’s Freud according to Parapraxes. Today I have just finished the conclusion of the first chapter of his book. The book is entirely impressed me as this subject learnt in the first year of my Psychology degree. In addition he is also my favourite idol in the history of Psychology. Although you are not basically studying Psychology I am sure you will be interested in this subject since this subject i.e. Parapraxes are liable to everyone. 

So what exactly do parapraxes mean?

According to Freud definition parapraxes are the physical acts which appear to be unintentionally and mistaken by a person.  In other words it can also be called as faulty acts or faulty functions. In it original word the faulty acts or faulty functions derive from fehlleistungen, which is it the translation of the German’ word. Some of examples of the parapraxes can be found in our everyday life; for instances, you may intend to say one thing, but you say another.

Let me tell you about the most common parapraxes that occur in our daily life. The example of this remind me of my psychology lecture when she gave a lecture in psychology.  She pointed out the word of ‘orgasms’ instead of saying ‘organisms’ that was clearly seen in the projector. Her intention to say organism perhaps disturbed because at the end of the both words the pronunciation seems similar with another. But how could the slip of the tongue happen as she said it in her own language? There is still further information about this and I apologize if I cannot explain them all on this paper. I might write the continuation of this furthermore later.  However, according to the phenomena that just given above called as slip of the tongue. Like other parapraxes phenomena; the slip of the tongue seem normally often happen to us by our consciousness and unconsciousness, which means depend on how vigorously the disturbed can effect us on that situation. While you read the example above, you might be thinking of your own experience, and ask me, ‘is that normal phenomena?’ 

According to Freud phenomena of the Parapraxes are nothing to do with illness. As I just said earlier Parapraxes are liable to everyone who means even a very healthy person and a well-formed person can be liable to Parapraxes. However in some situation being ill or disturbance may stimulate to parapraxes occur. These cases can be explained and investigated in a psychological explanation. However there are some of phenomena that will not be part of psychology. These phenomena according to Freud called as mental phenomena. In addition, Freud described further that phenomena is a mental process and they all have a sense.

Lets us back to what I have said earlier about slip of the tongue. In slip of the tongue they are separated in three divisions namely, slip of the pen, misreading and mishearing. What do I mean by all these three divisions?

Here the example of the three divisions, and I am going to give the examples of my own experience.

Slip of the pen

I often make errors when I write an English essay. This is certainly normal as English is not my first language. On the other hands I also quite often make mistake when I write in my own language, which is in Bahasa. A nagger came from my lecture as I wrongly wrote his name I wrote his last name with Botteno instead of Bottone. My intention disturb because I was always nervous thinking of his lecture, particularly in his exam. The nervous of thinking about his lecture apparently disturb my purpose to write his name correctly although I have read his name for almost a year!

Misreading

I am sure everyone has done this as well. I had this about two days ago in a society blog and suddenly I remember to put this experience as one of the parapraxes phenomena.  Someone gave a comment in one of my article. I read fully his comment and soon after I read I replied his comment. After an hour I was back to my article and read his comment which was the same comment that I had reply before. When I reread his comment I just realised that I had given a totally wrong point of view to his comment  in which he mentioned something else that I unexpected.

I will be back in another times with the same article in further explanation.

Winter In Dublin,

DBLN, 19.47-201209

The Snow And The Happiness

It’s been quite long time that I haven’t touched this blog. And how long I haven’t been blog walking? Hmm, quite long I guess. I MISS YOU. Really miss you so much. I suddenly remember this blog and yearning to write this when I look at the snow out side of the window.

The research that I’m doing now has been made me enormously busy, and nearly three days I have been stuck in the research. I will be going for another psychologist test on the 9 of January 2010, and I really need good mark and pass the test otherwise it will be over. You know how badly I yearn for this, therefore I cannot think about anything except STUDY.

I have passed my previous test with satisfy mark and I am so happy for that. I finally get my concentration back after trying hard to get it back. Well, here I am with a big smile when I write this. With 91.5 % mark result I’m now more confident for the next test. Wish me luck love!

You know how much I miss you. All what I wish for you is keep writing and blogging.

DBLN, 16.45-171209

Ketika Cinta Bertasbih

This is a draft posting that suppose to be posted by a month ago. However I was indeed in the gold brick.    

I spent my last Saturday night at home by watching an Indonesian movie entitled “Ketika Cinta Bertasbih”. I remember I commented on someone’s blog that I didn’t like the movie  -although  I haven’t watched it yet-  as he compared a brilliant art to some of Indonesian movies in which  I assumed the arts are incomparable, particularly with such as an Indonesian movie like Ketika Cinta Bertasbih.  Not all Indonesian movies are bad –Not intending try to be nice with my own country-, there certainly some of Indonesian movies that we can proud off e.g. Cut Nyak Dien, or perhaps you can suggest another?  I’m interested in the major of this movie (i.e. Islam), and there is some good points to this movie.

The movie is originally inspired from a book that written by the  same writer of Ayat-ayat Cinta. Habiburahman El Shirazy is currently the most inspired religious writer in South Asia, particularly in Indonesia. The first booming movie that is inspired from his book is Ayat-ayat Cinta.

Ketika Cinta Bertasbih movies is just like other Indonesian movies, full of romantic story and depressing scenes and sometimes I think too much or not matched with the criteria on their acting. Possibly this type movie, romantic and depressing acts made to show how grassroots in Indonesia behave and think about life in general?

The movie is taken in Cairo which is the country that the most Indonesian students embark for studying about Islam’s majors.  Generally the actors and the actress in Ketika Cinta bertasbih’s movie they are new in the acting spheres.  It’s slightly similar with “Ayat-ayat Cinta” which was also at that time the most booming movie in the Indonesian movie’s productions.  Either the story or the location they both seem similar. In addition Ketika Cinta Bertasbih and Ayat-Ayat Cinta  are made in Egypt with the atmosphere Indonesian student activities.  

Here is a slight review about the movie of Ketika Cinta Bertasbih.

Azzam (Am I right spelling his name?) is an Indonesian student who has been spending his life in Cairo for almost 9 years. In addition he makes his own small entrepreneur, namely by making ‘tempe’- an Indonesian traditional food made of soybean-  to help his study as well as family’s financial. In pursuits of his future wife, he meets a woman who is known as the daughter of ambassador called Elliana.  Since he finding that she’s not a type of woman his looking for, he accidently meets a woman who is also later he recognise as his friend’s fiancée. Azzam indispensable admire a type of woman with a headscarf and with the same view as to life and religion, i.e. Islam.  However, his emotion to his friend’s fiancée seems far beyond his reach.  

Although this is not my type movie but I take the positive remains in this movie. And I’m deadly curious to the end of this story as the movie ended when Azzam was back to Indonesia with Elliana and until I write this, I still can’t find the continuation for the movie.  However, I might be able to guess what the end of the story in the movie.  Is it happy ending?  

DBLN, 20.10-011209